Thou shall listen & and not speak.

2009-07-05T08:03:00.000-07:00

I haven blogged is recent months... i feel drained out. Physically and mentally.

So many things happened. Inside my mind, i wish i could run away from all these...
I dun feel like continuing studying anymore, don't want to continue the way i am living now.
But can i decide for myself? No. I can't.

Must life always be this way? must it be that we are destined to go through all this, just because others are doing and living life the same way?

My health is in a mess. My whole life is ruined.

Ala carte chicken

2009-05-12T02:06:00.000-07:00

I think everyone should take a look at this and reflect upon our lives.
Be thankful for what we already have.

Life may not be that bad to you.
Spare a thought for the unfortunate ones.

They may not have the delicacies that you enjoy everyday, but they never complain.
See how thankful they are.

Doesn't it break your heart?
Knowing so many children, so many people out there,
die of hunger.
How many innocent lives, were lost, because we didn't know or we pretend not to know.

Help those whom you see along the way.
Your little gesture means a lot to them.

2009-05-06T18:28:00.000-07:00

I feel so terrible.

A LOT OF PEOPLE are sick!!!

DANGER!

PRAWNING

2009-04-23T10:46:00.000-07:00

PRawning.

In other words, PRAWN FISHING.
BEst location to me so far - BISHAN.

I just came back with boy and bro from prawning but at a not so fantastic prawning ground.
Its under the same boss from what i heard, with the Bishan one...
And the place i go to, is near Bird Park and its like full of flies, very little prawns and its not a bustling place...

Maybe that explains that there are lesser prawns in the pool cause of lesser people?

anyway... If you want good place to prawn with alot of prawns, but alot of people la! especially weekends, holidays or night time....
BISHAN is the place.

If you want quiet place with not so many many prawns...
BIRD PARK nearby is the place.

FACEBOOK CRAZY

2009-04-21T08:26:00.000-07:00

I am very into Face book games nowadays and i am totally bored now because my favourite game in facebook can't be played.

ROARSSSSSSS... Spell B.O.R.E.D.
and this game is like totally addiciting me to the core because i am like constantly refreshing hoping it will be done soon...

I bet there are game lovers like me waiting anxiously hoping the game would be up and running...
and i totally wanna say something out loud.
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I WANT MORE ADS FOR MY BLOG. =(

FIRST & FINAL

2009-04-20T08:29:00.000-07:00

Its the First day of the Final year of school!

I am like totally Excited yet bored. IRONICALLY.

Excited because its a brand new start, new people, new class environment.
BORED because its like the same PBL with readings to be done beforehand with a FACI that is not that interesting in certain ways.

STALKER ALERT!!!!

Anyways, there is this CRAZY INSANE GUY that keeps on sms-ing me claiming he got my number through my friend and keep asking me to be his friend. =.="
He either doesn't understand English or he has reading problems. Because i have already said " I DON'T WANT TO BE HIS FRIEND."

So the guy, since you claim you know me, and if you are reading my blog, get this clear again.
I DO NOT WANT TO BE YOUR FRIEND. DO NOT.
CLEAR?
Don't force me to publicize your number.
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Enough of the normal day rantings now on something inspirational.
I went for service learning workshop today and i seriously learnt a lot.
Take home points like don't know how many that i lost count and I've bond really well there with the people. At least in my opinion la!

Principle of Reciprocity
I SERVE you in order that I LEARN from you.
You accept my service in order that you may TEACH me.
*Quoted by the Father of service learning... some professor.*

Best test. (Use this to see if you have really helped the person you want to)
DO THOSE YOU SERVED GROW AS PERSON?
DO THEY, WHILE BEING SERVED, BECOME HEALTHIER, WISER, MORE FREE, MORE AUTONOMOUS?
AND WHAT IS THE EFFECT ON THE LEAST PRIVILEGED IN THE SOCIETY?
ARE THEY HELPED, OR AT LEAST NOT FURTHER HARMED?

WONDER

2009-04-18T04:15:00.000-07:00

I don't get it when some people post their blog to be like all philosophical when the blogger/(s) is/are nothing of that sort. *POUTS*
Blog add not revealed, in case that/those philosophical person/ people turns their theory on me. Don't really fancy that preaching. Crap to me.

Like EVERY SINGLE POST. I swear. Its all about acting like they know alot, been through a lot.
CRAP LA. Total bullshit la. The blogger in real life is't that philosophical, neither to me that the blogger is that saint and knowledgable leh.

I mean if you really wanna blog on philosophical stuffs then be at least more like what you are on the blogger sphere wad. Like Xiaxue's on the plasticzilla... I admire Xiaxue, obviously because she's just the way she presented herself, both on the blog, tv shows and through what other blogger's opinion...

Okays, i am mean. I don't deny. But the bottom line is, be true to who you are what.. If you want to be a philosopher, then be one, don't act like one.

One or two post once awhile is okay la, but acting all the time, don't you get tired?

Random rantings

2009-04-17T19:44:00.000-07:00

I've been more and more like a vain pot, constantly trying to look my best.. *If you don't agree, it's fine with me, people have different definition of their own best* And i am totally into like make-up and having good anf fair skin... I know it sounds ridiculous cause i used to be a runner and i am constantly exposed under the sun and i don't really bother about make up and stuffs but now, i am a total convert! Make up does wonders. Try it properly and you'll know what i mean!

*My close pals agrees too, so it doesn;t really matter if people out there don't agree*

I feel like eversince that incident that happened, i understood and further confirmed that Shane, is my BOYFRIEND + BEST FRIEND

I do have my girly best pals but i am talking about how he treats me and be there for me like a boyfriend/best friend and i totally didnt regret putting him first in my life. I didn't do anything wrong. He is first doesn't mean i don't cherish my rest of the friends right?

If you are truly my friend, you won't mind being the first or the last or whatever because you just wanna be my friend. But anyway, yeah, i feel like i am not so sociable and fun but i have grown in the sense of knowing certain things, you do not need to justify.. Because there are people who do not matter.

And to any bitches hoping that i have fallen out with my best pals, so sorry, i didn't... in fact we even went shopping and do girly stuffs yesterday... This post is just a random post because i am bored and tired because i slept at 4plus am and i now wide awake at 10am. BLAHS.

I am contented cause i have all i need.

Family, my dog, my boy, my close friends. Not in any order, all are important.!

2009-04-15T08:57:00.000-07:00

Time to update...

Have been having outings with vani....
She did her first pedicure ever.... Had nice dessert... walk around here and there... Had cheap thrills taking photo at the neoprint machines.. Life's good!

went back malaysia too...
anyway, school is going to start real soon and i am really looking forward to going school!

Heading back to visit granny later!
Photos below!

Decisions.

2009-04-09T09:14:00.001-07:00

Looking back in life at the decisions i made, some good, some bad, i feel that certain decisions are bad in a way it was made too late but it's good cause finally that decision is made.

I think last year, during the later part, i made several good decisions that i am glad i made them cause, those decisions made me a happier person, living for what i believe and think is right. Thats good enough i guess.

I am happy. Very pleased with myself cause i feel free, feel that i can be myself at ease without worrying of offending people and so on.

So i think good decisions that comes too late will afterall still be good. And good decision makes you find your own worth and ignore those bad and un-needed things or stuffs.
Example: organize gathering.. its like after so long, but it turn out good still.

I had fun pretty much...
MEt with my previous sem classmates aka close gang
Met up with best friend Vani dear
Going for Service learning trip and made a few friends already..

My belated good decisions brought me all these. Thank god for this.

BKK pictures 2

2009-04-07T08:13:00.001-07:00

Shopping LOOTS

supper! satay and beer for him

hungry

"I Wasn't... *flashing his cheeky smile*

Caught looking at girls LOL!

Old school MRT card

Photos Part 1

2009-03-31T02:16:00.001-07:00

Pictures from BKK!!! Not in order

Happy boy at the BTS station

4 Face Buddha

Weekend Market (Doggies for sale!!)

Our lunch(Beef, Chicken)

Our Hotel Room

Arriving at the Airport

Our boarding passes!!! Flying by Singapore Airline

Part 2 coming soon!

SHOPPING in BANGKOK

2009-03-27T22:37:00.000-07:00

Finally, i am in the mood to blog alittle about my Holiday trip to BANGKOK. "The land of thousand smiles."

Honestly to say, it was good. Food was good, shopping was good, hotel service and hotel room was good, People there are good.

CHATUCHAK WEEKEND MARKET
(Sells anything you can imagine... Clothes, shoes, bags, food, furnitures, PETS and many more..)

As boyfriend and i went over during the weekends, its obvious we didn't give the Weekend Chatuchak Market a miss! Its like your PASAR MALAM in singapore, except the fact that it's at least a few hundred times bigger! I swear! we walked there till our legs were numb from the walking and still, we didn't even complete half the market. You need at least a few days to finish walking it.... PLUS, if you are not careful, you will get lost in there.

Beware of pickpockets though... Plus, it will be advisable to get a fan/paper fan.. its like a oven in there with the temperature in bangkok...

PLATINIUM MALL
(MY favourite shopping center... shopping there alone is sufficient for GIRLS)
5 LEVELS of shopping .... sounds little? There's almost a few thousand shops there.. it will take you one whole day to finish maybe 3 levels, if you walk each and every single shop. Clothes, Bags, Shoes, Comestics... It's really heaven... shopping heaven! I bought 80% of my stuffs there... And some of the clothes there you can find it in Singapore... except its like less than half the price you pay.

People should just go there and do their annual shopping. Its good!
Bargain is not really neccesary here cuzz, when you purchase 2-3 pcs from the same shop, just ask for the wholesale price and they will gladly give it to you..

*shorts might not be able to be tried on... so better to bring your own shorts for comparison.. if not, wrong size! Their size for SML is smaller than the normal ones that we buy in singapore for some designs.. Word of caution!

Photos and second part of bkk to be updated real soon!

WAH i blog hop and see same topic discussed!

2009-03-18T09:40:00.000-07:00

Regarding my post on jealousy... I was just blogging out my own thoughts in general after seeing one of a acquaintance's blog and woah.. got people blog same thing when i blog hop leh!

"Below are extracts from a PRESTIGIOUS BLOGGER's BLOG"
(in red wordings are my opinion though...)

Blogger:"Firstly,I think,When you eventually make friend with one another,You WON'T want to be the one who win.Why?Friends share things together,Not compete with one another."

Me:Maybe you want to write in to CLEO magazine arh and shoot all the editors and those woman in the story cause they are the one who wrote in in PUBLIC MAGAZINE that jealousy exists, even within the CLOSEST FRIEND.* Just happen i agreed with them. Or alternatively, you could go do a survey in Singapore? Just a suggestion.

Blogger:"When you cant accept the fact that other's are better than you,It's just show that your main aim is to compete with that particular person.You made friends with one another,And in your deepest desire,You just want to win, sub-unconsciously."

Me:True True..But what if i wasn't the one who can't accept that people are better.... hmmm...I got blog before what.. "Because i am lucky post"? A girl from the same blog that i extracted the jealousy thoughts say when one gets more than others, its just because she's lucky! So, i can deal with that.No Probs.

Blogger:"Well,I often feel that,Before you even want to comment on another,Just look at your mirror,Are you really better off than the others?Even if so,Good virtues tell you that you should just keep your thoughts to yourself."

Me: By you writing this post, and your friends commenting on this post, you degraded yourself to be the same as me! WOOHOO.... Cause you didn't keep your thoughts to yourself too! MUHAHAHA.

Blogger:"Jealousy?I think it'd definitely come from the person themselve.The person who felt that way in the first place,And think that way, before they thought its vice versa.

Me:Hmm First Grammar mistake.You want to say 1 person then it cannot be themselve(S). And a question.. would people get jealous because he/she got MORE than what others have?? Weird...

Anyway, No names mentioned again cause it' just thoughts in general and some nice discussion to get my brain moving after such a long holiday..Have fun!

End of discussion for jealousy... Jealousy is a green eye monster!!!!

Thats me. agree?

2009-03-17T12:53:00.000-07:00

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Come Walkabout in Australia experience

2009-03-16T07:01:00.000-07:00

Win Tickets to AUSTRALIA!!!!

Dreaming about an adventure of your lifetime? Swimming with wild sea lions in South Australia, experience a hot air balloon ride and have a bird’s eye view of the capital city, Canberra, get up close to the beautiful marine life and enjoy the world’s greatest natural wonder, the Great Barrier Reef or have a snow adventure mid-year in Mt Buller, Victoria. For die-hard romantics, head southwest of Perth and be pampered in spa retreats and indulge in gourmet food and wine in Margaret River or live it up in Sydney and conquer the breathtaking Twilight Sydney Harbour Bridge.

Though i have never set foot on this piece of land, but its definitely one of the dream destination that i wish to set foot on.

To me, going for a holiday meant either a shopping trip or a trip back to nature, relaxing far away from the bustling of the city, away from all possible factors of stress.

Now now, having an adventure in one of the dream destination that one have would be icing to the cream! To be able to be that close to the wildlife or just being able to see them within near range, how fantastic would that be?

Would the wildlife run away from me? I used to be calling myself the walking Zoo for i am loud like lion, can be gentle as a rabbit (OK, i know people are going to laugh and say i am shameless or whatsoever, but i can be what! Just that you never see! HAHA) i can loyal as a dog, slow as a tortoise and the list goes on.... So would they welcome me???

Sittng in the Hot air balloon would be another thing i would love to try. * DHL balloon in singapore is no longer in service and I didn't get to try it at all! =( * Seeing everything from the bird's eyes view, won't any of you like that?

What happens if the balloon bang into a bird flying? Maybe i can experience and see if it's going to be hot being in a HOT air balloon? I really don't know how it would feel....

IF i win this contest, all these might just be able to come true and it's all going to be FREE....

and free to me now, would meant wining the tickets to Australia and the package to experience the wild side of the country!

I am totally excited and hopefully, I can be one of the lucky winner! ^^

Holiday to bangkok.

2009-03-16T06:53:00.000-07:00

Jetting off in approximately 4 days time!

Destination: Thailand, Bangkok.

Duration: 4D3N

Time to shop like crazy~~!!~!~
Time to bring back lots of clothes, bags, shoes for me, sisters and my dear friends!

Excitied!! Second Trip overseas with my beloved boy!
Oh my, i am blessed, lucky, fortunate.

Jealousy

2009-03-13T08:40:00.000-07:00

Browsing through photos, previous blog entries, both mine and some random blog from the net, and it makes me realize jealousy is scary...

Quoted from one of the blog:
" i just realised even between good friends, there will still be jealousy.I feel kinda disappointed and helpless at the same time.I dont want any of my good friends to feel inferior or whatever because i still believe we stand out in different ways and we ALL have our own weaknesses and strengths."

It will distort the image you have among one another, and you constantly want to be the one who win, the one who is the best. You just can't accept the fact that other's are better than you or other's are getting more than you.

When you can't have what others are having, and you feel that the person is showing off, that' jealousy. If you are not jealous, or you are not comparing yourself to others, where comes the term "showing off" or "hao lian"?

Example: Family A has alot of money and dine at expensive resturants, occasionally treating family B who is their good friends that isnt that well off.. Mummy A Buy branded goods that Mummy B don't even know off or able to afford when they go out together and this causes Mummy B to say this to the daughter when she is home one day...
"That Auntie A like so hao lian hor, know I cannot/won't buy those things,still go out with me and bring me go watch her buy."

So, isn't this caused by jealousy? If both mumies have the abilities to buy the goods, would mummy B still say the same thing to her daughter? I doubt so.

In all, this blog post is not to put people down or bring an arguement. If it offended anyone, I'm sorry andi just want to say, its speaking in general and not specifically on anyone. Just feels that, jealousy really occurs even within the best of friends or relatives.

2009-03-05T07:06:00.000-08:00

life is good. No need work, no school, sleep till as late as i want, miss boyfriend and think of him as much as i want, go out as much as i want and lastly,

SHOP as much as i CAN.
No work no income, so can buy what then buy.
Cannot buy don't buy.

I am a happy and lucky girl!

Shop like crazy with best friend from secondary school(Hui Ming) today.
Life's good!

Eating dogs

2009-03-02T10:40:00.000-08:00

Dog slaughtering for human's consumption. If you once eaten a dog, never do it again. If you once abused a dog, never do it again. I look down on you and there will only be this one sentence for you.

The only one sentence to tell those people from this moment onwards who eat dog meat, kill dogs, abuse them and treat them like shit, this is the my sentence just for you.

I hope one day, you get bitten to death by dogs or hopefully, your mouth and hands start rotting.

People might think, why so agitated? that because i read and saw the pictures of how they are being killed. you murderers who kill and eat them, are worst than beast. You are one heartless and cruel beast that do not deserve to be loved or cared because you can't even sympathize with these poor dogs.

Why people should not eat dogs, the reasons are below.
You eating them, leads to people keeping them and killing them to sell it to you.
No demand, no supply. Simple as that.

Do you know they are actually being kept in places that are even smaller than your toilets, for their whole lives till they get killed in a cruel way?
Stepping and sleeping on their own pee and poo, being feed with mouldy bread soaked in water, given minimum care?
If your parents treat you this way when you are a baby or child, who can't defend for yourselves, do you think you like it?

When being transported to the market for people to choose, they are all packed tight with not even a space to turn around,
because these cruel people are afraid of the dogs biting each other and thus causing them to lose money for no one will buy dead dogs, you think that's humane?

Why not you stay in a small little cage and never ever get to straighten your back till the day you die?How fun and how kind is the person to do that to you?

And finally, they way they kill them. Strangled and hang to death eventually.
The dogs can't speak, they can't say anything to beg for your mercy. All they could do, is struggles and hopefully you will let them go and not kill them. Have they done anything wrong? Did they kill your family members that you gotta kill and eat them up?

Dogs, man's best friend. Is that how you treat best friends?Is that how we human, should treat animals that will care, understand, spend their time, be loyal and will be there for you always?

Do they even deserved to killed? Where is your conscience?

Free

2009-02-26T06:47:00.000-08:00

FREE.
What would be the first thing that would come to your mind when you see the word free?

Free as in carefree, freedom?
Free as in nothing to do and boredom that might possibly follow or,
Free as in it does not cost a single cent and its deem to be linked with money?

I think this actually reflects on how we view our lifestyles.
Whether you are constantly on the topic of money or you feel that your life is short of something or the best, you are satisfied to a certain extent, or should i say, at this moment, you are contented.

So, what does FREE means to you?

Interesting facts

2009-02-25T00:41:00.000-08:00

Did you know that ......

1)high fat diet is most likely to disrupt sleep?
So, if you are not sleeping well, your diet could be the reason!!!!

2)the number one supplement for your brain is choline?
So, if your mum tells you, eat more pig brain and youare totally gross out, you can tell her this.

3)the biggest cause of stress in men is work?
Stop saying women are your greatest cause for stress. Get it right!

4)the most calming color is green?
I guess, besides smoothing for your eye, here's another reason to make green one of your fav. colour!

5)the minimum hours of sleep needed to be at your best is seven?
Normally, from what i've learnt, adults need at least 7 hours of sleep. Also to add, people who have at least 8 hours of sleep, loses more weight than those who don't. So if you wanna lose weight, do have adequate amount of rest.

6)the best exercise to lighten your bad mood is yoga?
Meditating and stretching with the breathing exercises, its a no wonder why it makes you feel better

7)the food that most improves coordination is strawberries?
Strawberries!!! I guess people in neightbouring country(Malaysia; Cameron Highland) have very good coordination since their famous for growing strawberries. (YOU SEE LOTS OF STRAWBERRIES EVERYWHERE THERE)

8)drinking cranberry juice regularly is good for your heart?
I thought its good for the urinal tract only.... Now, another reason to drink more cranberry juice, though its a bit sourish and leaves a weird after taste(My opinion)

9)that an increased intake of pickles and papads may cause kidney stones?
I guess its the amount of salt /Perservatives!!! Eat Fresh! (Subway) *ROFL

What your name means???

2009-02-24T09:18:00.000-08:00

Try it!
http://www.paulsadowski.com/Numbers.asp

There are 12 letters in your name.Those 12 letters total to 61There are 6 vowels and 6 consonants in your name. What your first name means:
Latin
Male
Lion.
Irish
Male
Poetic.
English
Male
Meadow or wood. Shelter. Famous Bearer: 19th century American Confederate general Robert E. Lee.
English
Female
Meadow. Surname or given name.
Celtic
Male
Healer.
Your number is: 7

The characteristics of #7 are: Analysis, understanding, knowledge, awareness, studious, meditating.

The expression or destiny for #7:
Thought, analysis, introspection, and seclusiveness are all characteristics of the expression number 7. The hallmark of the number 7 is a good mind, and especially good at searching out and finding the truth. You are so very capable of analyzing, judging and discriminating, that very little ever escapes your observation and deep understanding. You are the type of person that can really get involved in a search for wisdom or hidden truths, often becoming an authority on whatever it is your are focusing on. This can easily be of a technical or scientific nature, or it may be religious or occult, it matters very little, you pursue knowledge with the same sort of vigor. You can make a very fine teacher, or because of a natural inclination toward the spiritual, you may become deeply emerged in religious affairs or even psychic explorations. You tend to operate on a rather different wavelength, and many of your friends may not really know you very well. The positive aspects of the 7 expression are that you can be a true perfectionist in a very positive sense of the word. You are very logical, and usually employ a quite rational approach to most things you do. You can be so rational at times that you almost seem to lack emotion, and when you are faced with an emotional situation, you may have a bit of a problem coping with it. You have excellent capabilities to study and learn really deep and difficult subjects, and to search for hidden fundamentals. At full maturity you are likely to be a very peaceful and poised individual.

If there is an over supply of the number 7 in your makeup, the negative aspects of the number may be apparent. The chief negative of 7 relates to the limited degree of trust that you may have in people. A tendency to be highly introverted can make you a bit on the self-centered side, certainly very much self-contained . Because of this, you are not very adaptable, and you may tend to be overly critical and intolerant. You really like to work alone, at your own pace and in your own way. You neither show or understand emotions very well.

Your Soul Urge number is: 7
A Soul Urge number of 7 means: With a number 7 Soul Urge you are very fond of reading, and retreating to periods of being alone and away from the disruptions of the outer world. You like to dream and develop you idealistic understandings, to study and analyze, to gain knowledge and wisdom. You may be too laid back and withdrawn to really succeed in the business world, and you will be much more comfortable in circumstances that are tolerant of your reserve, your analytical approach, and your desire to use your mind rather than your physical being.
You are very timid around people that you don't know very well, so much so at times that casual conversation and social situations can be strained. You tend to repress your emotions to the extend that some people have a good bit of difficult understanding you. You tend to be very selective with friends and you don't easily adapt to new environments or to new people very quickly.
The negative traits of the 7 include becoming too much the introvert and isolated from others.

Your Inner Dream number is: 9
An Inner Dream number of 9 means: You dream of being creative, intellectual, and universal; the selfless humanitarian. You understand the needy and want to help them. You would love to be a person people count on for support and advice.

Updatessss

2009-02-23T22:47:00.000-08:00

Time to blog again... after so long, i finally think i am ready to blog again!
After the losing some, i gained alot... Not a bad thing afterall i guess.

This holiday is practically a slack at home holiday... hehe..
Not exactly very fun, but not exactly not good....

Gotten a new camera(Olympus 850sw) at vivocity during the weekend, along with a bear that comes with donating $50. I think the camera is a good deal.

Sweetest boyfriend with the Adopted bear name Junior Shane.

First day of school

2009-01-05T07:26:00.000-08:00

Today was not bad a day, i find myself working hard. Reached school before 8.30am today and it does not feel weird at all.

Blog more tomorrow....

2008-12-29T23:52:00.000-08:00

2009 Message to boyfriend:

"Even if i m angry for no reasons, he needs to understand why and he must take all the initatives to understand my very difficult and confusing behavior. And the only way to show that you understand me is by doing things for me even before i need to open my mouth to ask for it."

(i think all boyfriends in the world should read this)

I have many many wonderful days this holiday... Staying at home, doing nothing... just laze around~Anyway, i got goals for myself!

My career path to take.... my aim.... i am wondering.... stuck between 2 choices!

2008-12-29T11:12:00.000-08:00

I wonder if it is luck or what, but i read a blog on a girl , whom was my secondary school friend's ex girlfriend ( they broke up already, the guy is in NS, the girl an air stewardess, tgt for 2 years) telling my secondary school friend that she did not leave him because she found a rich guy, and before knowing this guy, they have already come to mutal decision to break up and in the first place, she didn't even know he is rich.
And her first sentence struck me.
"First, i did not leave him for some rich fellows although the guy that i have good feelings towards now is rich. Thats because i m lucky. "

Yes, that's because I'm lucky.
I was just sharing my joy in a way whom people may think that its an act of showing off i have a rich boyfriend althought its true the boyfriend i have now is doing quite well with an income that is pretty good for a diploma holder. That's because i m lucky.

New year coming! 2009, a brand new year to look forward to!
BLAHS.
Oh, cannot forget to say, i love my mummy, sister, boyfriend and dearest buuny who is very funny!!! I think she knows who is she!

2008-12-22T08:50:00.000-08:00

6 months would soon pass us by!!

2008-12-16T06:44:00.000-08:00

Its really saddening.
The feeling of not being understood.
The feeling of being misunderstood.
The feeling whereby the ones you thought, closest to heart, were actually the ones furthest away.
Why? Because thats how the society judges people, therefore, everyone would be the same?
The cruelty of the reality.
The reality of the society.
The cooling of hearts between people.
Was this a dream that has been shattered?

Disappointment beyond what this word could actually expressed.
I loved, I treasured.
Most importantly, I tried.
I really cherished. But why must it always be like this?

2008-12-12T06:09:00.001-08:00

LAST DAY OF SCHOOL AND ITS HOLIDAY!!!!

WEEEE... Holidays... Days that i don't need to wake up early, days where i can slack away~
I am so excited!

though not all happy, at least, i am quite happy... It would be totally completed when boyfriend comes home! MISS HIM!

2008-12-11T06:38:00.000-08:00

hmm.. i don'tknow if this is appropreiate, but since it has been quite sometime since i blog about what i feel about everything, i'll just rant it out all at one go...

I don'tknow if i am asking too much, or maybe i am too naive, but sometimes, i really feel like, whats the point of being nice to friends when most of the time, mot of them are too busy for me, or simply, couldn't be bothered because, i wasn't that important afterall. No names mentioned here, unless u think u r a guilty one... it could be any friend, regardless of length of frienship, gender or age.
It makes me wonder.. really, like am i still like a friend, or just someone, who is trying too hard to blend in. Am i someone whom would be thought of right at the start, or someone who actually be thought of to make up the numbers? Alot of questions going through in my mind.
Though i might be laughing at all, sometimes, its just that i didn't want to flare up nd argue back, but sometime's words that friends say are so sarcastic, at least to me, that i feel hurt and i wonder should i be bothered next time if there was no one for that friend, should i even bother to be there.
Like, I really wonder, am i as important a friend to that person, like how i treasure that person?
I can only say, those who r my true friends, i know who you are... and those whom treat me like a nobody, don't expect me too be forever so nice. I don't owe you a thing. I have already given my best.After this year, i would most probably can't be bothered anymore.

Good news to myself as the xmas season is nearing, i am happier too cause its the season for joy, peace, harmony and sharing with the love ones....And my dearest is coming home soon!
I MISS YOU BABY BOY!

2008-12-03T04:54:00.000-08:00

Back to blogging...
I had a pretty good time today going out with mummy..
wentto IMM and this time, is just me n mum, sis went for basketball competition...
It was like a fantastic bonding session...

I bought some stuffs this fewdays, clothes, brassiere, bag thats on sale...
Practically buying all this small little things to try to cheer myself day by day as boyfriend is not around...
boyfriend went over to vietnamfor work for ard 5 days... since last saturday...

2008-12-02T07:42:00.000-08:00

browsing through photos of happy couples, looking at those happy and sweet face, makes me wonder, was my love with Shane, of the same kind? The exciting, fun, the kind of love when all youngster have?

Going on romantic dates- watch movie, go out shopping, etc etc
Taking tons of photos - be it camera, neo prints
Those sweet loving nicknames - dear dear, darling, lao po, lao gong

I realise my love with Shane, my boyfriend of ard 5 months plus, is totally opposite...
We enjoy watching movies at home(DVD)
We enjoy activities like prawning, drink tea family actitvites(MJ)
We seldom take photos, let alone neo prints
We find going to short getaways extremely meaningful
We don't believe in couple ring (I mean he, i have been dying for one) but he got me the couple necklace and wallet...
We seldom have those fanciful dinner at restaurants, but more of home cooked, be it my house, or his house...
We met each other's granny and find grannies as one of the most important people in our lives...

Did the honeymoon period passed too fast? But, i am sure, i loved him, since the start till now, and he feels the same way... but, why is this relationship, have a striking resemblance of those whom are aunties n uncles ( married ) ??
Am i that old to be auntie... (panicks)

He always says, LAO FU LAO QI (old husband, old wife = tgt for so long le)
but, are we really lao fu lao qi??

2008-11-10T20:27:00.000-08:00

*Clears away spider webs*
Simply too lazy to update this blog... but now, I find this time suitable for posting whatever updates that I have missed out.

Cameron Trip
During the one week holiday, I went over to Malaysia, Cameron Highland for a retreat with my beloved boyfriend... 4 days 3 nights.
The bus going to Cameron had only 2 passengers and that’s me and boyfriend. Coolness!?
10 hours of bus ride was what it took to get there from Singapore. I believe that is the longest journey I have travelled on a bus, but upon reaching the hotel, I felt it’s all worth it. Totally stress free there...
We stayed at the Equatorial Hotel, at the peak of Cameron, where the whole hotel has no air-con, simply because the temperature is around 17.5 - 19 degree Celsius out there.
We went many different farms, vegetable farm, strawberry farm, cactus farm...
The most common farm there will be the strawberry farm. Not only that, I think the icon for that place, is the strawberry itself. EVERYTHING could be associated with strawberry.

Strawberry tea, strawberry juice, strawberry ice cream, fresh strawberry, dried strawberry, strawberry candies, strawberry looking bag, strawberry everything. You name it, I think they have it!
We pluck our own strawberries, drink tea in the middle of the day, waiting for time to pass, eat steam boat for both lunch and dinner, stroll around with no worries and went for full body massage with scrub plus foot reflexology. It's like paradise there as it's really stress free there!!!!

People who want to enjoy cold temperature, dun want any of the exciting rides; just want to enjoy the nature should consider giving Cameron highland a try.

2008-10-16T12:51:00.000-07:00

Woo, haven't been blogging much~~~
Boyfriend's birthday's coming soon.... around 12 more days. ^_^
Holiday's coming soon too~

I am a happy girl.
Thinking back, before i came to RP when everything was in a mess, wrong choice of school, wrong choice of relationship... Not saying the school is lousy, but it didn't give me the direction i wanted... Not saying the relationship was bad, but maybe, we're not meant to be in the first place? Sometimes, i feel that, i' m lucky. Without all these mistakes, i might not be what i am today, i might not have BFF and besties in school now and most importantly, the failed relationship that hit me very badly, made me realised, how great my boy is now, compared to previous. Though you would say, i shouldn't compare. but just trying to say, my boy is good.
Even my mum sing praises of him. =.=

Blahs. I have insomia, thats the point i am trying to prove. Cause its 4am, and i am wide awake blogging! BLAHS.

2008-10-07T10:54:00.000-07:00

Its EMO time again where its late in the night, i can't sleep, but start to think about a lot of things, time where i start to get philosophical* subjected to own opinion* where i tend to have this urge to blog about a lot alot of things.

Looking back, what kind of person i have been? Have i been a dutiful daughter? Have i been a caring sister to my only sister? Have i been a loyal friend?Have i been a loving girlfriend?

Honestly, i think i have failed. for all the above.
People who are close enough, would know, my dad had left 7 years ago, leaving my mum to support me and my sister. Many a times, i know how hard it is for her, a woman, to fend for herself and her kids. I know how sad she must have felt, having to go through all this alone, with no one that she could lean on.
I haven told my mum: "i love you." I didn't cover the household chores completely for her. I didn't show alot of concern for her. I didn't let her know, i love her more than anyone in this world and i thank her for everything she had done for me.
I am going to do so now, by writing a note to tell her! Too shy to say so. Thats the problem with the traditional chinese family, we are not used to showing affection openly. Many traditional chinese from the older generation, often expressed their love and concern through naggings and scoldings.
Enough about how a daughter i am... Have you, the friends or people reading this, shown enough care, concern and love to the mum or dad who go through all hardship themselves to give you the best? Have anyone of you said thank you and i love you to them recently?

As a sister, i think i have a lot to learn. I won't say i failed, but i think i am too over protective of her, often worrying about her, over worried. I love my sister. Would give her extra allowance if i can, nagging at her, hoping she can be a better person, supporting her in wadeva that is her dream- basketballer. She's a nice sister too. When we go out together, she will protect me, letting me take the inner seat, she'll let me alight first, so that no one would take advantage of me, covering up for me, accompanying me.

As friend, i really think i am not a superb friend who can be there by your side 24/7, but trust me, if you, whom i considered as friend, needs my help, i promise, if u call me, hp not answered call my house, i will be there. I promise. If you need someone to be there and its within my mean to be there physically, i will be there. Sometimes, its like i may seem not a superb friend, because i don't have a lot of time to go out with you, talk to you, that doesn't mean i forgotten you. I remember everyone of you whom i considered my pals. especially to the handful of besties and BFF, its my promise that you will always have my care and concern.
Its always easy to make friends but hard to keep them. I've found you girls, would i be given the honour? to always be friends of you girls?

As a girlfriend to you my dearest boy, i will continue to learn to be the best that i could. You've given me the world while i robbed you of your own world. I know you love me the best. Sometimes, i really wish i could just hug you forever, just having the ability to hold you, to let you know, i am appreciative of everything you have done and given me.
You gave your time, your love, your care, everything. Whatever yours, became mine too. Thats what you always tell me.
How could someone so sweet be mine, i often wonder. Will this love take for a change, i worry.
Can we always stay happily forever? Can all the unhappiness and troubles go far far away?

People often fail not because they are not good enough, but because they THINK they are not good enough. Maybe if i start believing that i can do it, that i could be successful, i would work towards it.
By not saying it , it does not imply its forgotten, but because some things, for some words, need not be spoken. They are expressed through actions and sometimes, are meant to be kept in the heart.

It does not really take a fantastic speaker to say the sweetest words
neither does it take a writer to write the most beautiful and touching story.
A simple phrase of i love you said from the one you wanna hear it from would be the sweetest and it would be you and the people you cherish that makes up the most beautiful story in the whole world.

2008-10-05T22:47:00.000-07:00

I have been going through some rough patches.
I don't know what's wrong with me. I don't know what to do.
Sometimes i wish you understood.
Sometimes, i wonder, if i do the same thing to you, what would you do?
Would you feel happier?
Would you think its okay? perfectly normal?

I need to be stronger, i need to move on stronger, i must live the life i used to.

2008-09-28T07:50:00.000-07:00

its been days since i last blogged....
Boyfriend's finally back...
i got my pleasant surprise for 3rd month- a bouquet of sunflower! *loves*

been spending time with him for these few days!!
Totally enjoying it.
Tomorrow's monday again and its time to buck up and study hard after the few days of enjoyment... the time for boy to start working hard after his 3 days break after coming back.

Tomorrow is the hilarious guy class , the hilarious guy who is totally opposite of hilarious.=.=
UT tomorrow too.... BLAHS!!!!!!!!
Been slacking around pretty much...

Movies that i watch again recently
1)Da Vinci Code
2)The bucket list

I think the bucket list is a must watch...
you will learnt alot of things, understand the meaning of life yourself, understand what is it to love, share and to know that the very last days of your life, you brought joy to both yourself and the people around you.

2008-09-21T22:13:00.001-07:00

Love is a choice, you make from moment to moment..
The thunderstorm scares me...
Why in times like this, why when i am so lonely inside must the thunderstorm comes?
Its making my loneliness stretch to its extreme.
The tears just can't stop.

2008-09-21T07:26:00.001-07:00

After a long day, i realised, maybe, this isn't what i want.
Maybe i was too stressed out in this new environment where everybody knows where they fit, but i could only try my best to find a corner to fit in, hoping that no one notices, how hard i tried, how hard i tried to hide my disappointment.
I tried hard to do something for you with your presence not around.
I am weary now.
I need time to think...
I love you but loving you made me lost myself.
I don't even know who is the one standing infront of the mirror now.
Because of loving you... i don't know who i am.
Because of wanting to give you the best that i could, i used up all that i could give.
Can i leave now?

2008-09-19T07:30:00.001-07:00

Blogging seems to be a way to keep myself reminded of the things that i have been through...
Today, i went IMM with Vani dear....

Had some really nice food for lunch at 4.30pm i think. Don't ask me why, i just don't know why everytime, my lunch will be at weird timing.
Walked around and we went DIASO to buy pinky stuffs...
1)Pink cutter board which double up as a mouse pad for me
2)Cushion for my chair
3)A plastic box to let me dump things into it.

Then went G2000
Got myself a nice pant at $25!
Kinda regretted not buying the other one... Hmmmmm...
But nvm~

Boyfriend is back on land...
With a nice room for himself plus internet, and he is totally contactable now..
I like this feeling. ^_^ though he is not around, at least he is still able to contacted by me....
Tomorrow i might be heading down to sentosa with me sister. HAHA.
FIRST TIME.

2008-09-18T05:34:00.001-07:00

Didn't blog yesterday but here's what i did yesterday...
I went for tuition, met Vani dear for lunch plus dinner at 5pm... Bought some stuffs home,
did moisture mask... chat with boyfriend and that's all~
I realise my life is totally lacking of pictures!
I NEED TO TAKE MORE PHOTOS.

Went school today for school and i totally learnt a lot of things which are sort of related to what i have learn for psychology class...
Learn how the different theory actually encompasses extrinsically and intrinsically motivation...
1)Flow Theory
2)ISO ahola Theory
3)Neulinger Theory

Looks easy, but tough at the same time. Takes lots of understanding through reading before we are able to understand....

I bought Mitzi's birthday present.... (Mitzi is Shane, who is boyfriend's sister)
Her name sweet right? Her birthday coming so, bf and i got a present for her, though bf is not physcially here with me, he suggested present and i, went to buy it.

I miss my poor boy... I love u for for everything u do my boy.

2008-09-16T22:48:00.000-07:00

Its Wednesday again!
Half the week has pass us by...
So what have you been doing this few days?
Have anyone of us ever wonder, as the day passes us just like that, is there anything,that we have always wanted to accomplish, yet failed to do so?

Life = Love it for excitement
Maybe, what i have been lacking this few days, its the excitment.??

2008-09-16T07:22:00.001-07:00

Finished all task that i set to do

1)Closets have been tidied
2)Table has been tided
3)LAppy has been properly organized
-School stuffs arranged in correct folders
-Customize the colours already
4)Disk Defragmenting - Done
5)Helped organized boy's email
6) PP posters - Tomorrow go get material

So i am quite organized i feel!
Intrinsically motivated!
-A sense of accomplishment!?

To BFF:
Of cuz i love you
I LOVE BFF! x Infinity!

Just something for boyfriend:
I missed you, love you and i will wait patiently.
My allergy hasn't recovered and i promised i will take extra care of myself.
You know days without you are so different.
If given the choice, i would always want you in my life along with BFF, family, friends etc etc.
Thanks for making me feel love even when u r so far away...
I know how tired u are, having to queue for an hour just to get to use the internet to chat with me for less than 10 mins.
We will go have a good time out together when you are back!

2008-09-15T18:30:00.000-07:00

I am in school, but late for around 10minutes...
I feel tired inside and sort of dying alittle inside too.
Its day 4 since i last saw his face infront of me in person...
I feel so unhappy. Really.

On the other hand, i feel thankful for having the girls around me...
blog more later i guess.

2008-09-15T05:10:00.001-07:00

Its yet another day passed.
Just wanna share some thoughts because of what i see thats happening around and what i see on TV...

Marriage
1.
the social institution under which a man and woman establish their decision to live as husband and wife by legal commitments, religious ceremonies, etc.
2.
the state, condition, or relationship of being married; wedlock: a happy marriage.

What does marriage means to people nowadys? Is it still ever so sacred? Do people really understand, accept and embrace what marriage brings?

To me, Marriage is something far away, yet something that i long for.
To have, to hold and to honour.
What do you think? Would you agree?
Maybe, people getting married, people who are in a marriage, before they act, they should always consider the actions they do and the type of consequences that may come.
Would it help bond the two of them... or is it an act that will wreck a happy marriage, an act that causes nothing but pain and torment to the one who loves you.

Enough said... now, something that i am happy yet hmm, unhappy.
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Boyfriend managed to come online...
BUT i was not infront of the laptop!

This was what it is....
(1:09 PM) shane♥christy:
galfriend
(1:09 PM) shane♥christy:
are u there>?
(1:09 PM) shane♥christy:
pls reply
(1:09 PM) shane♥christy:
its hard to get a internethere
(1:10 PM) shane♥christy:
i miss u ok,
(1:10 PM) shane♥christy:
i am working from 12 mn to 12 noon
(1:10 PM) shane♥christy:
just finish work
(1:10 PM) shane♥christy:
u take care ok
(1:11 PM) shane♥christy:
ok i got to goo
(1:11 PM) shane♥christy:
see u
(1:12 PM) shane♥christy:
u got to take yr l unch ah
(1:12 PM) shane♥christy:
and one more thing i cant open yr e mail
(1:12 PM) shane♥christy:
the internet here is too slow
(1:13 PM) shane♥christy:
i will call u later
(1:13 PM) shane♥christy:
hold the phone on yr hand ok?
(1:13 PM) shane♥christy:
miss u

I totally hate myself at the moment because i was not around!
Thats not the point anyway...
I recieved the call!
Happy... Totally happy to be able to hear his voice.
I am happy...

As i was blogging, he came online again! so happy!
I miss him so much. =(

Oh yah, i wanna blog about friends too.
Thanks to my dearest pals, i love you all.
*hugs* you girls are the best!

CHRISTY LOVES
Family, Best friends, bibi and of course i love my boyfriend.

2008-09-14T05:58:00.000-07:00

My 101th Post!

A sunday without your presence...This is sort of like the first weekends that i don't have you around in singapore.... Weird, but i'll learn to get used to it.
It's kind of depressing. I thought i can manage, but it isn't so.
Its like, "where are you? I want to hear your voice. see your face infront of me and i want to be held by you."
Its taking me alot of effort to laugh from within...
its weird not messaging you, not talking to you...

Today, i spend my day with Huiming and Vani, though Vani dear went home earlier......
Did scrub, mask, trim eyebrow, talk... just like secondary school days...
Its comforting. =)

My allergy isn't subsiding.... its not making me feel fustrated.
I want it to be okay... but it isnt...

Dear boy, first post for you which you will see when you are back.
I miss you. I hope everything is good there.
waiting for you message / email.
Love you.

2008-09-13T02:39:00.001-07:00

I am bored without much things for me to do...
Boyfriend has reach Vietnam safely...
I guess within like another hour or so, he would reach his hotel...
Time difference is around one hour i think... Singapore's timing is faster if i am not wrong...

Going to the hospital to visit my 2nd aunt...
I wish time would fly pass fast fast.............
Sighsssss.........................
Nobody is exactly free to go out with me...

Do you believe in karma?
Just wondering...
Retributions, good deeds, evil deeds and stuffs.

Will continue to blog more later....

2008-09-12T20:31:00.001-07:00

Come back soon

I am not exactly in a joyous mood now...

Boyfriend is going to be flying away to vietnam for work...

Going too far away for comfort.. No internet connection, no phone reception.

I am sad and sort of lonely.

Yesterday went for dinner with Shane, Shane's daddy and mummy...

Thats when i got to know the news of him flying.....

So last minute, but it's his job, his career...

I had many dreams last night...

here is one of it that i remembered the most...

Dreaming of me no longer being able to take it anymore because he is constantly flying away, dreaming that i feel totally disappointed and lonely without him and i feel that breaking up is the best solution, while my mummy comforted me, telling me not to be thinking that way...

I think i will be missing you like never before... previously you only went away for few days to hand carry things to other countries.... This is your first official offshore trip, to be on the oil rig, i hope you have a safe offshore trip.

To the sweetest boy i ever had,

I'll be waiting for you to come back... You must remember to take good care of yourself in vietnam... Drink lots of water, cover yourself with blanket when you sleep...

Remember to email me, i will email you too....

Safety is the most important issue and remember what your mummy says... Safety First.

"I will wait for you...i love you, and i'll definitely miss you like crazy."

2008-09-11T07:15:00.000-07:00

I CANT ENJOY SEAFOOD, CHILLI etc.
So sad.
So sianz
WHY!

Tomorrow is Friday!
I love Fridays.

2008-09-10T07:34:00.000-07:00

Today is a good day for me.
Boy's Carplate open 2nd prize in today's 4D.
Obviously, he didnt win, becuase he dont gamble in any form.

Just checked my grades for last week...
I have gotten good grades for 2 lesson and one X for the friday lesson that i didnt attend as i wasnt feeling well.....

ROARSSS.
Tomorrow got class again and i hope to continue to work hard and go to school on time!

I love Wednesday.
I love happy days.

2008-09-08T00:48:00.000-07:00

TODAY CLASS IS BORING.
BLAHSSSSSSS~~~~~~~

Its really irritating me. Someone, just someone.
ROARSSS... I think Shirg, Husband and germ will know who is this person i am talking about.

*Ming Chin will know too. Ming chin is my new classmate*

I need to keep my cool and continue coming to class regularly and on time.
LALALALALA

WORK HARDER!!!!
I wanna work harder and get a good GPA this semester!
WEEHEEE~~~~~~~~

2008-09-07T07:07:00.000-07:00

WOOO!!!!
Something that i am super happy about!

MY PP HAS BEEN APPROVED!
*jump around in joy*

I am a happy girl!
Tomorrow got school
Sports Management~

2008-09-05T09:16:00.000-07:00

I feel unwell, i feel sort of weak... But i am trying to brace myself.
I am waiting for you to be back.
Waiting for you to assure me everything will be fine.
I miss you.. i really do.
Be back safe and sound, thats your promise.

Relationships of all kinds are like sand held in your hand.
Held loosely, with an open hand, the sand remains where it is.
The minute you close your hand and squeeze tightly to hold on, the sand trickles through your fingers....
You may hold onto some of it, but most will be spilled and its gonna be hard to pick them back.
A relationship that you have works the same...
Held loosely, with respect and freedom for the other person, it is likely to remain intact and it will always be there....
But hold too tightly, too possessively, and the relationship slips away and is lost.
Don't you think so?

2008-09-04T08:08:00.000-07:00

I am early on the first day of school and i went to school with BFF and Jerome.
WEES!
Hopefully i can maintain this attitude for coming of 15 weeks!
Didnt get a chance to eat with the girls today as i was rushing work and have to chat with my PP advisor during my first breakout... but managed to talk with the girls during the 2nd breakout.

Feeling slightly better but i dunno why there seem to a constant pain in my chest... Anyone know what i should do or know why is this so?

I love BFF. u noe u noe? MY BFF IS THE BEST BFF AROUND.
MUHAHAHA!!!
She cannot be replaced. Unless there are unforseen circumstances. like what she said. hehehe... hopefully it wont come or happen!
I LOVE U, MY BFF, and i know, u LUB me too!

My faci for today is good and fun, but extremely hard to please as he has a high expectation in the work that we present.... TOUGH!!!

Boyfriend left for Rabual this evening at 8.55pm... last min need to urgently send some ship parts over.... i sent him off to the airport again..
We had dinner at imperal treasure.... the duck meat was awesome... nice nice~~~~
Don't really bear to let him leave my side...
Feels uncomfortable and disoriented as he is too far away from me for comfort....
anyways.................He will be back at 5am on sunday... waiting for his safe return!
I love you boy!

2008-09-03T07:35:00.000-07:00

Okay,
sorry for the mistake in the school reopening day...
Tomorrow, Thusrday is the day of school reopen.
Excited!

Last night......
Anyway, i got drug allergy last night...
It was terrible.... Thank god i have my baby boy to save me. He bought me to the doctor at 2 plus am...
Thank you boy. I love you. Thanks for caring for me.....

Today
I have completed my PP....
Happy for the fact that i am able to submit it before the date due...
Boy treated mummy, sis and me to Soup Restaurant... It was nice!
Thanks boyfriend. Thank you!
Had dessert at boon lay market after sending sis and mum home...
I am the luckiest girl on earth i guess?
Hopefully all these will not end.
I hope i can always be the on you love and care for.

To boyfriend:
Your selfless, thoughtful and love made me understand, i can really have a boyfriend who loves me with everything he has. You are the best thing that has ever happened to me. I Love you.

2008-09-01T02:51:00.000-07:00

Time to blog again...

Sometimes, i wonder, why are some people having their mouth full of " the person they believe in, the one that has the most power" claiming this and that, yet their actions and thinkings are so contradicting?

What's the point of acting as if you are so so "classy, noble, holy" when all your actions are like SH*T?
Don't you think its shameful to the fellow people who believe in the same person as you? You bring bad name to them... Seriously.

Maybe you should self reflect on yourself. You acts, your everything.
Though you are so called, Not my boy's friend anymore as you claimed, but don't you think that the way you handle relationship is really quite "ridiculous"?

To me, you don't have class. You have a serious attitude problem.
To me, you are not a princess. Because the way you speak, the way you act, just shows that you are one immature sore loser who can't accept any critisim, who can't accept that you are wrong.
To me, i think you don't deserve the keep speaking of "alm*ghty" when you obviously don't understand what he has preached?
Talk the talk, thats what you do... you only act.
maybe u shud start walking the talk.

2008-08-31T10:53:00.000-07:00

Alrights, here comes the start of the new semester in approximately one day.
Excited plus alittle nervous.
Excited because, finally school term is starting and i will be in the same class as some of my pals and my dearest babes are just opposite my class...
Nervous because i wonder how the rest of the classmates would be like and how i am going to fare for this coming semester.
Target : 3.5 GPA above.

Boyfriend might be going to work offshore for around 3 weeks or more pretty soon i guess...
Anyway, it will be over soon i guess?!

Went to Comex during saturday... Damm packed. As if its free of charge to get the products.
ROARS.
I dun like crowded place.

Nitendo DS Lite

2008-08-28T05:21:00.001-07:00

Nitendo DS lite (Dog lovers edition)

Thats the present that Boyfriend bought for me....
Its fun to play!!!
AND!!!!

I HAVE COMPLETED MARIO!!!
wahahahaha!!!!
CALL ME THE PRO!
kidding!!

Okays, i have completed Bomberman, now Mario, next will be animal crossing?
Blahs.

Its yet another thursday

2008-08-28T03:24:00.000-07:00

Its another thursday again... sometimes, i wonder, how many thursday will one go through in their lives? And how many thursday would you remember in your life?
It just struck me so suddenly that, to me, i have settled into a "its just another day" mentality.
Do you feel the same for yourself?

I tossed and turned, unable to fall asleep last night.. Its always like that when someone close to me leaves my side. Be it family members, boyfriend or friends. Anyway, its just a passing phrase i guess... Maybe as time passes by, i will be able to accept it better!

Just a sharing on my trip to Qian Hu with boyfriend on Sunday i think...
Qian Hu, a very renowed fish farm in singapore, that sells all kinds of fishes and items for your pets, seems kind of normal to me... Maybe because it was raining heavily, after walking for like 15 mins, there was nothing else left for us to see.

BUT there was a sign on fish spa....
Now, the craze for fish spa should have subside, considering the report that it might not be that exactly "healthy" for your feet as maybe, it is not that clean afterall... "imagine someone with his or her leg putting into the same pool as you, but, he has serious skin prboblem."
I haven been to one for twice, effect on the spot is good, but after like 2 3 days,its back to the same old normal feet.....not baby soft anymore....
Thus, i think its not that effective afterall?*PERSONAL OPINION*
For those who wants to try, go ahead! maybe your results would differ from me....

My boyfriend will be coming back in ard one day's time... HAPPY!!!

I remembered in the pass, there was one tagger who said i seems obsessed with my boyfriend and that i should take it easy if i want it to last, i agree with you sometimes, it does not take the most passionate love to last, but, till this point, Thanks! * if that tagger ever read my blog again*

2008-08-27T04:12:00.000-07:00

GPA for my Sem 1 year 2 seems good enough for me, considering that i have missed almost 7 - 8 lessons for certain modules!
Heard from Dawn that we are actually Opposite of one another for our class!
I am happy!

My boy boy went to malaysia for training course... he will only be back on Friday evening... Missed him very very badly...
Can't wait for the time to pass so that i could hold him near me again.
LALAALAAA!

Time to share...

2008-08-24T07:51:00.000-07:00

Friday i met up with the girls!
Namely my Husband - Dawn
Shirgin Baby
Germaine Sweetie!
My boyfriend and Dawn's boyfriend came along too!
The girls went to Siam kitchen for dinner and we chilled at TCC for awhile.
It was a cool time chilling with them and i loved their presence.
After the boyfriends came, we headed to JI DE CHI for desserts.
Totally happy!
I suggested that we should go DXO to chill and have some good time together!
Good bonding, drank beer, played dice...It was really a nice bonding!!!! I am happy!
Hopefully there will be more of such gatherings!

I spent weekends with them... - Boyfriend, Han Qi kor kor and Elaine Jie Jie.
Its fun. I like like it!
I am a happy girl!
Boyfriend bought me Neckalce for the jade pedant on saturday too...

A bowl of water or a little goldfish??
In your relationship, which are you?
Which one you think is the best representative of you?
Ask me for explanation.

Pictures will be uploaded later!
Going for supper!

friends

2008-08-21T23:43:00.000-07:00

What exactly makes people friends?
1)A simple hi and bye?
2)When one helps you when no one else does?
3)When no one understands you but he/she does?
4)When no words are xchanged but you know he/she knows what you are thinking?
5)When the world turn against you, yet she will be the one, defending you no matter what?

The list could really go on...But what exactly does it takes to be friends?

Personally, to my BFF, i think this is what makes us BFF.
We laugh at almost the same thing.
We gossiped about the same issue.
We have common interests, at least a few.
We want and hopes for the best for each other.
We know when we want a listening ear, when we want to be alone.
We try our best to always be there as much as possible when we need each other.
You never blame me, but you corrected me when you feel something isn't right with me.
No matter how awkward it may be, we somehow always managed to put our pride down and not get angry with one another.
Even though we might be apart, i really still think of you.

I cherish you,just as much as i cherish my family and my boyfriend.
If i only need a few people in my life.
It would be you, my boyfriend and my family. You know?
I can don't talk to anyone, but as long as you are there i am cool.

2008-08-21T11:53:00.000-07:00

Its 2.52 am now as i pen down yet another blog entry.
I can't fall asleep. Feel just wide awake.
Blog has been upgraded for a nicer look. *its my personal opinion*
Anyway, i am feeling kind of stucked.a feeling that i could not explain.

Later will be going out with Dawn, Shirg and Germaine.
Dawn asked me this question" would you choose boyfriend or friend?
I know its quite disappointing, but given the situation now, i will choose my boyfriend.
Reasons are quite simple actually...

1) Shane is not only my boyfriend, he became my soulmate
2) He is like my best friend too
3) He cares for my well-being more than his own
4) He place me on top of alot of things
5) His actions made me feel different, a sense of security
6) If the world abandon me, he promised to be always there for me
7) He gives me everything that i could have asked for
8) He could be 24 /7 on standby for me

I know it might sound childish, silly to some, but for everything that Shane has given me, i think he deserves to have my everything.
He gave his all to make sure i feel welcomed to his family. He did everything he could just to make me smile. He gave everything he had to me, just wanting to assure me.
He put himself down, just to make me feel good. He corrects me, share with me, and know me like no one else.
He plans everything for the future with me in the picture. He makes me feel like i really can count on him. He is really special.....
When i just say i wanna eat supper, he knows where i wanna go, what i wanna eat. When i say i want to play my favourite song, he would know at his fingertips what songs i want.
I might be selfish or naiive, i don't know, but my boy has certainly proved me that he really deserve a good treatment from me.

But on a sidenote, i really love all my friends too.
I actually feel very torn apart, when i need to choose one.
Both are people i cherish.
How m i suppose to just choose one...
If i can, i will forever want the both catergory of people.
Trust me.

THE HAPPY LIFE IS IN A CONTENTED MIND

2008-08-20T23:01:00.000-07:00

Lose your faith and you will lose everything...
The way you percieve determines the action that will be carried out.
Pain and suffering could actually change you totally.

Sometimes, having the chance to go through the stage of pain, uncertainties or just the feeling of lost, could be a kind of happiness.

Why?

Becuase going through this stage, could help you pave out the way of your happiness for yourself.

Knock Knock, who's in?

2008-08-18T22:27:00.000-07:00

Its time for some updates again!
Blog entries will cover what i have been up to these few days....
Some random thoughts...

This few days i have been somewhat like been around BF.
Went DXO to drink with him and Mandy... Mandy is his very close friend, for those who don't know.
They had more of beer while i drank one Mocktail and some beer...
After that went to Chinatown for some supper and home sweet home later....
The above was on a Friday....

Saturday, met up with HanQi brother, went over to Ah mei to chill.... then went back BF home for Wii because han qi kor kor need to go to his grandma's wake... Met in the night again for awhile then its time to go back MY own home.

Sunday was pretty okay, I had tuition, Bf came to pick me up and we went over to find HanQi kor kor at Westmall, Had Sakae Sushi, play some Arcrade, slack awhile then its time for dinner.....
Had Zhi Cha... NICE! I like... or maybe i am too hungry...
Roars.....

Sometimes i feel like running away,
but everytime i see your eyes, my heart cant help but want to stay.
Yet, i seriously felt that i ain't good enough.
Tell me what should i do?

FOR ADOPTION

2008-08-13T07:30:00.000-07:00

Anyone interested in adopting a young puppy that is estimated to be around the age of 2 months?
Local breed... which most probably will grow up to medium size....
Interested parties can drop me a tag on the tag board with ur email...

"To you, he may be just a dog, but to it, you are his everything."

I went on a date today!
Happy! Muacks! Love my bf!
We had Kolo Mee at Marina Square followed by movie!
Money No enough 2! Touching.
I give it 4.5 stars out of 5!
Go catch it! Funny yet heart warming at the same time.

I passed.

2008-08-11T07:08:00.000-07:00

I PASSED. (though its just BTT and its a 2nd attempt)
I am happy!

Life = simple and nice...
Sch = holiday soon

Anyways, i just want to pen down my thoughts on random.

I feel touched and loved.
Loved at a different level.
I kind of taken a path of no return...
Embark on a journey that i wish, could go on forever.

The value of the relationship became priceless.
I just want everything to be good.
I just want to be happy.

GOOD GOOD!

2008-08-03T09:47:00.000-07:00

My boyfriend loves me the best.

I have been immersely blessed nowadays....
Been crazily play DS whenever i have the time cause its super addictive... But not as addicitve as my boy~

Holidays coming soon, hope to be able to find a part time temp office job.... earn some extra money! WEES~~~~~ Though best is can dun work and rest at home.... *dream*

Student's exam coming soon, gotta give alot of extra tuition session for them.... = lesser time to go out after school...

Boyfriend will be going on course for this whole week, hope he just go course, don't need to go work after the course... haha! so he wont be tired and he will have energy to chat with me! BLAHS

I have cleaned out my room, clear those unwanted stuffs - clothes that i never wear for more than 6 months, bags that has not been used for the past 1 year, unwanted articles lying around. My room feel totally *Breathable*.
Got myself some new clothes, and a new bag....

Currently into doodling here and there using crayons! HAHA. I like~
Habitually needs a dose of Pink dolphin, if not green tea, if not China apple soft drink each single day.... Will make it a habit to drink more water too....

Went out with Vani and huiming, after like a few months....
Next wednesday might be going tamp with Shirg n dawnie.... See how it goes~

Weekends will be national day and i wonder if i get to have some time with boyfriend like what we always have for the weekends..... I like!
Maybe going swimming this weekend too... not confirmed...
Lala.....

Test on tuesday... i hope i can pass.

WISHLIST:
-A BIG BOX OF CRAYONS FOR ME TO DOODLE on thing... i love making little notes nowadays...
-a simple and nice ring to go with necklace
-Pass my test
-No quarrels with bf for many many months to come... *we havent quarrel at all* i like! fingers crossed~
-Spend more time with boyfriend and friends
-Earn more money!

2008-08-02T07:37:00.000-07:00

"Often the test of courage is not to die but to live."

How many does one know about this?
I learn this through the practical way in the past.
I cant say i am super courageous, but at least, i can say, i am not a coward.

I am utterly happy.
Somehow, as now is the seventh month, and conincidentally, dad left for 7 years... i wonder, if he did come back to visit mummy and us....

ROARS.
I love my life. i love my dog.

HOROSCOPE

2008-07-30T17:32:00.000-07:00

All about me, myself, mine, I

Gemini
Gemini go everywhere together, hand-in-hand, symbolizing your dual nature. Our world comes in pairs: good and evil, male and female, in and out, yin and yang -- and you Geminis are living proof. Some might say Gemini are an entanglement of paradoxes, but the truth is that Gemini have an easy acceptance of opposites. Gemini world is one of duality. Gemini can like this and that, one thing and its opposite. It's like you see your world through a radio and Gemini can tune experiences and points of view in and out as your interests change. You Geminis are curious, talkative, versatile and mentally active. Your mind can bounce around from one topic to another with great ease, making Gemini the champion of cocktail party chatter and lighthearted social encounters. Others will think that Gemini are fun to be with, but your ability to change with the changing winds can also lead others to see Gemini as shallow. Gemini motto might be "A rolling stone gathers no moss." You are the eternally youthful child, no matter your chronological age. A razor-sharp wit can have you verbally dueling with the very best of opponents, who moments later are your best of friends. As you fly through life, don't forget to take time to smell the flowers.

Element: Air
The astrological element of air represents movement. And the most efficient movement between two points is often a thought. Air signs are thinkers. They emphasize the intellect over other functions. With active minds and a good command of language, the air signs are the natural born communicators. They can be light and breezy as the breath of spring, but their words can also carry the power of a gale force wind. The air of Gemini is always changing direction. First the winds blow one way, then another. It's a metaphor for how our mind solves a puzzle, first thinking one way and then trying a different approach. This is a restless and searching wind.

Third House: Communication
The Third House symbolizes all aspects of communication -- and most communication happens within our immediate environment. Therefore this is also the house of our surrounding. Traditionally, this includes the type of interactions that happen between siblings, whether or not you actually have any. It also represents quick trips and short-distance travel.

Key Planet: Mercury
Mercury, the Messenger of the Gods, moves around the Sun faster than any other planet. He symbolizes our thoughts -- not only how we think, but how we communicate. In fact, Mercury is in charge of all language. Mercury is our active and rational mind. It is not only "just the facts" but also what we do with them. As the key planet of Gemini, Mercury is restless and changeable. It drives us to talk and to listen, but not necessarily to action.

Gemini Greatest Strength: Your curiosity about a variety of interests
Gemini Possible Weakness: Distracting yourself from what is most important

2008-07-29T22:31:00.000-07:00

I dun ever want to say good bye to you.
I just want you by my side, safe and sound.

You kept your promise. *hugs*

Blog Vacation

2008-07-28T07:05:00.000-07:00

Pardon me, i have not been updating my blog. Not that life is not interesting... just that, there is so much that i don't even know what to and how to pen them down..
But today, i have so much emotions in me, i somehow have the idea what i should blog about...

First on friendship.

Friendship, the bonding between people who can connect, who can go through thick and thin, people who are willing to share their happiness and sorrows together.

A true friend most probably will be like a piece of rock, sometimes, it might seem insignificant, seem to be hard on you, but they are sturdy, and they are always there, unless you move away from it.

They might hit you hard and injure u sometimes, but after getting injured, u will always learn something new, u will understand each other better, you will realise, thats why you are my friend, thats what makes you my friend.

My friendship might not always be smooth sailing, there might be misuderstanding, but i am always happy to know, after each storm, we the girls, move on stronger together on a tighter bond. I am glad, we stood through the test.

Now on life.

I believe i need to stop running away, and face up to my emotions and whats within me. Am i happy? truly happy? thats what shirgin baby asked me. I am not always happy. But i am generally happier compared to what i used to be. And i am happier now, that i have found the man who can understand, who can accept and who makes me wanna be tamed down, makes me want to agree to whatever he say, makes me feel for him, makes me want to be at my best for him always cause to me, thats what he deserve. It might seem silly, but why give so much to a man whom i barely know for 1 month plus you might ask, but, he is worth it.

He shares my sorrows, my happiness, my burdens, my worries, my dreams, my everything.

He knows how to make me smile, when i am down,he gives me a helping hand when i fall.

A boyfriend, a best friend, a soulmate, a husband that i want. He gives me nothing but the best. He spends whatever time he could with me. He makes me feel like, " hey, i am so lucky to have him and be loved by him."

I wasnt truly happy in the past, maybe because, there is always this aloof exterior i carry so as not to be hurt by others. Becuase i need to protect myself, my family. I have a responsibility that i cant run away. A responsibility given to me 7 years ago, on the 11th march. But though i am tired, i have no choice but to continue on with this responsibility.

But with boyfriend now, i seem to have found someone, whom i could seek advice from, someone who will help me with whatever that might comes. How can i live without him? Maybe i can, but if i can, i dont ever want to be without him.

To my dearest boy who is in Korea now...

The parting this morning, i kept the tears away, i don't want you to worry, but after knowing you have flown off, i cant help but worry, the anxiety of not able to contact you, the constant hopes to have u reaching seoul safely. And when i lost my way to school, for the first time, i lost my way... not really lost, but lost in heart, cause i missed the stops, the tears cant help but dropped, cause i felt so alone for the first time in years. I felt like i don't know what what to do, i just want to cry and wait for you to come hug me and assure me its fine, you are here.

Its weird, i have never ever felt this way, this parting for just less than 40 hours, makes me know, and understand, i need you, want you, and u are not someone whom i can live with, you are someone i cant live without. its not just a wanting to be near you, its a need to have you. I told dawn, i felt a piece of me missing, because, its with you. And i can only feel complete, once i have your hug again.

The hug we have before you went into the departure hall, its a hug that i have given with wishes of safety, well being, a hug that symbolises how much i cant bear to be away from you, even if it is just for awhile. I am waiting for you to hug me again when you return, which is like in less than 30 hours..

I kept myself occupied by playing with the game console you bought, by talking to you on msn though u are not infront of the screen of your laptop at home... reading through the sms, pretending that you are talking to me. It makes me feel better. I just don't want to live without your presence in my life.

Wherever i go, whenever the phone rings, i always thought it was you, calling. Thats how much i miss you. When you finally called, my heart felt so much lighter. i cant help but smile. My boy has reach his destination safely! and when you said you miss me, i just want to cry, cause i missed you too!

Today i spend my day, thinking of whatever you have said to me before, whatever thing we have done before. Its all nice and warm and fuzzy in my heart.

I am silly,but this silly me, knows i have made a right choice being with you. You made everything falls in place nicely. I love you more and more each seconds.

Sarang Heyo. I love you.

Here is the promise to you for you to read when you are back, I'll always be here for you. I promise.

U made love beautiful. you la you la!

I NEED REST

2008-07-18T04:47:00.000-07:00

I've fallen sick, just seen the doctor..
Doctor says: You need more rest, your health isn't good."

Thus, i need more rest.

REST

Maybe i am just not good enough?

2008-07-14T23:15:00.000-07:00

I feel like an idiot sometimes.

I feel like whatever i have done is like not good enough in the eyes of them.
Whatever i said, i done, is out of my concern and sincerity yet i am being treated like a dumbo?
Someone who didn't care about the feelings of them.
If you r not my friend, i wont even bother.
I wont even make an effort to say something.
Maybe its best to shut up and not care.

Maybe i should just draw myself away.
When all along i tried to balance everything, do everything to try to ensure happiness within the group.
Nevermind forget it.
I dont want to care anymore.

Boyfriend says:
You gain some, you lose some.

another update....

2008-07-14T05:09:00.001-07:00

Another post of the day..
Doing RJ now... gotta do my PP soon.... So many things on hand!
ROARS

Continue later when i finish my RJ

I am bored

2008-07-13T22:55:00.000-07:00

I am bored.
BORED
Very BORED
VERY VERY BORED....

Updates.

2008-07-13T02:13:00.000-07:00

Its a blessing for me to be loved by you

On the Friday night - 11/7/08

Met up with Boyfriend and Hanqi kor Kor with Elaine Jie Jie to go PRAWNING.

I swear they are good! Lol... Boyfriend taught me how to prawn and i caught 5! in 3 hours. I am a beginner okay! I used to catch only like MAX 3 prawns in 3 hours on very rare occasion....
The skills you need for prawning is actually quite easy, as long as u get the hang of it~

Saturday & Sunday- 12/7/08 - 13/7/08

We got to spend the whole day starting from 1.45pm. I am happy.

We went to Queensway and to Ikea... Then we went over to our "gonna soon be monthly trip" location to have chill and we spend some quality time together while we waited for Rick, Hanqi kor kor and Elaine jie jie to come...

As usual, Boyfriend did his favourite thing -BEER session.

anyway, its fun. I love it. Thanks boyfriend! Loves.

To boyfriend:

You have made me the happiest girl on earth with every simple gestures of yours. I love you Infinity!

BREAK OUT 2

2008-07-10T22:30:00.000-07:00

Boyfriend, thats what i want to tell you... HELLO I LOVE YOU.
I don't know how to tell ou, but you've blessed my life in many many ways.
I just want to stay with you. Now and forever.

You are MINE ONLY and i am YOURS TRULY.

To Shirgin, Dawn, Germaine.

Shirg, thanks for praying for me. Loves~
Dawn and germaine, thanks for always being there. i love you girls.

BEST FRIENDS

2008-07-09T21:58:00.000-07:00

For SHIRGIN, DAWN and GERMIANE the BFFs of mine.

To shirg:
Though sometimes the words were never spoken, I hope you know that, me and dawn treasures the time, the fun, the care and concern from you. It may seems like we r drifting apart at times, but in our hearts, we r still as close as ever. Don't feel alone, we are here for you.
I cherish the fact that i got to know you. Remember the song " you.... light up my life...... you gave me hope ...." the simple songs says it all. Past present and future. you will always light up my life.

I LOVE YOU SHIRGIN.

To Dawn:
My BFF plus my Boyfriend. Times spent with you are always well spent. The laughters,the fun, the everything. I'll always remember every advice you have given me. LOVES!

I LOVE YOU DAWN.

To Germaine:
Though we might not seem that close, but i regard you as one of my BFF too! surprise right... haha.. thanks for all your advice. I love you too!

I LOVE YOU GERMAINE.

Here's a prayer : I pray hard that our friendship is able to withstand all storms and through it all, we will always be Best Friend Forever.

For you, my love.

2008-07-09T03:40:00.000-07:00

For my Boyfriend, The song on my background.
The below are the lyrics in English and Chinese.

Title: My love will get you home
By: Christine Glass

If you wander off too far 如果你游离太远
My love will get you home 我的爱将带你回家
If you follow the wrong star 如果你追随了错误的星星
My love will get you home 我的爱将带你回家
If you ever find yourself 如果你曾找回自己
Lost and all alone 迷失和孤独
Get back on your feet and think of me 回来并记起我
My love will get you home Boy 我的爱将带你回家，男孩
My love will get you home 我的爱将带你回家
If the bright lights blinds your eyes 如果太炫目的光芒灼伤你的眼睛
My love will get you home 我的爱将带你回家
If your troubles break your stride 如果困难阻断你前进的步伐
My love will get you home 我的爱将带你回家
If you ever find yourself 如果你找回自己
Lost and all alone 迷失和孤独
Get back on your feet and think of me 回来并记起我
My love will get you home Boy 我的爱将带你回家，男孩
My love will get you home 我的爱将带你回家
If you ever feel ashame 如果你曾感觉困窘
My love will get you home 我的爱将带你回家
If its only you to blame 如果你被责怪
My love will get you home 我的爱将带你回家
If you ever find yourself 如果你找回自己
Lost and all alone 迷失和孤独
Get back on your feet and think of me 回来并记起我
My love will get you home Boy 我的爱将带你回家，男孩
My love will get you home 我的爱将带你回家
If you ever find yourself 如果你找回自己
Lost and all alone 迷失和孤独
Get back on your feet and think of me 回来并记起我
My love will get you home Boy 我的爱将带你回家，男孩
My love will get you home Boy 我的爱将带你回家，男孩
My love will get you home 我的爱将带你回家

WAHAHAHA, 3rd post of the day

2008-07-08T01:35:00.001-07:00

Happy MODE
okays, i have just finished my UT and i am feeling much much better compared the morning, thus, its really important to eat and sleep early!

I must sleep and eat at the correct timing!

Kinda bored now, so i just wanna say some random stuffs to boyfriend:

I miss you TRUCKLOADS, love you BIG TIME want you REST OF MY LIFE

I'll never leave you, and i know, you'll never leave me too.^_^

3 more days to friday, we will be meeting on firday hopefully!

Looking forward to it!

Second post of the day

2008-07-07T21:36:00.000-07:00

I love my boyfriend.
I love my boyfriend.
I love my boyfriend.
I love my boyfriend.
I love my boyfriend.
I love my boyfriend.
I love my boyfriend.
I love my boyfriend.
I love my boyfriend.
I love my boyfriend.
I love my boyfriend.
I love my boyfriend.
I love my boyfriend.

BIG TIME

I nearly faint.

2008-07-07T19:42:00.000-07:00

The picture says it all.

I nearly faint in the train towards Woodlands today.

Everything turend bright and blurry, my hands and feets got numbed, i couldn't breathe properly.

Guess the lack of sleep, inadequate of water and food, stress has cause me to feel that way. I am not sure... will be visiting the doctor.

Maybe the train didnt have sufficient air to let me breathe. I don't know!

Thanks to Iskandar who went down to the block to help me to go up to the class. Thanks Panda!

I feel so drained up now. I wonder how do i make my own way back home later....

i feel like closing my eyes now.

2008-07-07T02:02:00.000-07:00

TRAPPED

If you ever realise

2008-07-06T09:57:00.000-07:00

I wonder. so much things and questions going through my mind...

1) We just got together, why does it seems like we r not like hat normal couples that just got together?
2)I understand you got to go offshore sooner or later and i have to be used to not having you around, but since you haven gone offshore yet, shouldn't us treasure the time we got to spend together?
3)I know you are tired, i know work is draining u, taking alot of your time, but sometimes, if you say, i am willingly to just wait at the void deck, just to see your face for 5 mins. Is that too much to ask for?
4) Am i taking up too much of your time?
5) I feel weird and sad at the same time, you know?
6) I wish i could be like, you know? so i could be totally cool not seeing each other.
7) I wish we could have the honeymoon period whereby the couples would yearn to see each other.
8) You know everytime you said its for us to "practise" my heart sank. To me, its just another reason.
9) It makes me wonder, if i walked away now, would u even realise it?
10) Am i really the one you want, or i just happened to be there?

LOVES

2008-07-06T08:50:00.000-07:00

I hope all 3 of us stay happy like this always!

ITs the time for LOVES

2008-07-06T08:11:00.000-07:00

There lables.... haha. i typed it in

Went Ikea with love today to walk around and spend some time catching up... Its nice and comforting to be there with love. Enjoyed each other presences immersly!!

The "CAR" i made! Kids Section
Me with MY car
LOVES!
Bambi on the CAR

Right after i completed my car not long, there was a sms from JOAN my love too, saying she is back from AUSTRALIA! so happy can... its like after 5 months... we finallyget to meet! Rina love was excited too. Its like the first time we ever gather the LOVES together! Will dedicate a post just for the pictures for the LOVES!

To boyfriend:

Work is tiring i know, i wished it wasn't bad to the point that it drains u up completely. I wonder if you will read this cause, most probably after everyday of work, you r so tired that u always feel like hitting the sack when you reach home... I am loving you still, missing you still and thnking about you! Life is wonderful with you in it, even when you can't be by my side. I had a great day out with my friends today!

To me, you are PERFECT

2008-07-05T08:44:00.000-07:00

BLAHS:

I am missing the times we hang out till 2am. But its okay. At least i get to see my boyfriend! We went out today. For a few hours, which is better than nothing!

Got tution today at 3pm, nice kid, nice family, from Burma. After which i went to Jurong point to meet love for dinner. Though a short meeting, but it really warms my heart to be eating, talking and sharing with love. Around 6.20, BF called me to tell me he will be meeting me and picking me to meet han qi kor kor for a while! Happy!!!!!

Its just a short meet up, but hopefully there will be more to come when work is less hectic for boyfriend. Wanted to go JP Parsa Malam but in the end, went to pick mama and sis up from jurong. BF is sweet. ^_^ *touched*

Went to blk 500 plus to walk for awhile before heading home.

To boyfriend:

Dearest baby, its hard for me to say goodbye everytime when its time to part. I wish shomehow, time would just stop so that we will never have to say our goodbye. I' proud of you, seeing and knowing you are working hard for the future. Though I really wished we could have spent more time together, i am still glad we get to meet.

To us now, i believe its the "quality, not the quantity."

For everything you have done, for every moment spent with you, you have made me one of the happiest girl on earth.

I've been tag!

2008-07-04T10:57:00.000-07:00

Instructions: Remove 1 question and replace it with your own. Tag 8 people, and list them out at the end of the post! Notify them through their tag board that they've been tagged.

1.Who are you chatting with now?
-No one... its 2am in the morning now...
2.What do you want the most now?
-Be beside boyfriend!
3. What will you be doing at 6pm?
-Maybe at home.. if boyfriend dun need to work on sunday, maybe waiting for him to pick me up.. if not, just slack and wait till he is free to chat on fone..
4. Do you hate your friends sometimes?
-Seldom, more of dislike, but i'll let them know how i feel and why.
5. What are you doing now?
-Listening to song, wondering about alot of things...
.6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
-Yes. I believe, after the sadness, there will always be happiness. because the sadness reflects the happiness.
7. What impossible things you would wish to do?
-Make everything possible.
8. If you can go back in time, what will you change?
-Stop my dad from leaving home for work that day. If he didnt work that day, maybe, he'll still be around.
9. Have you broken someone's heart that he / she tried to commit suicide?
-I am not sure....
10.What if your crush asked you out?
-Reject? Because boyfriend wouldn't be happy and i don't have a crush cause i LOVE bf.
11.When did u last get attach?
-1 week and 2 days ago. Laughs.
12. What feeling do you hate the most?
-Sadness and stress and anger
13. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
-Yes. If not what for be friends with them?
14. What are you looking forward to in the coming weeks?
-Spending more time with boyfriend, friends blahs~
15. Who do you hope to be always there for you?
-Family, boyfriend, friends and BIBI
16. How many times have you rejected someone or been rejected by someone?
-Forgotten!
17. What is the most unforgettable experience in your life?
-The pain of losing my dad. I will never forget.
18.Where are you now?
-Home, obvious. 2am can go where?
19. Do i want to get married? (my own question)
-Yes. and we are working towards it.

8 people i'll tag:
Jeannie
Germaine
Katrina
SQ
Mee juan
Rina
Veeni
Ophi

And i love you so....

2008-07-04T06:35:00.000-07:00

Never ending love

I finally met up with boyfriend today for dinner and stroll at IMM.... the last time we had time together was around Tuesday i think and we went JEC that time..
I really cherish the time we had together.. so short yet so memorable.

I love the smell of him, the way he held my hand, the way he makes me smile, the fun we had together when we eat, talk and walk. Its sweet and heart warming. Its a feeling that I'll never forget.

Didn't get a chance to go prawning today because bf has got work on Saturday at 7AM! so, by the time i finish updating this blog entry, he would be asleep cause he look and he is totally shag out by work. I hope on Sunday there is no work, so tomorrow i will get to go out in the night with him to meet Han Qi kor kor! I pray hard!!!!

Tomorrow i will be going out with love for swimming + tanning and i bet it is going to be fun since it has been so long since me and her went out together... Used to be going out with the class frequently and now, so seldom.... After swimming will be going tuition at CCK and maybe by the time i reach home, Bf would have finished his work! i hope there will be good news tomorrow! *fingers crossed*

Yesterday, i went out to Holland with Iskandar and Dawn for chill out session as Iskandar is working there at the Coffee Bean... Had chicken chop for dinner and we had drinks and cakes while we slack there, doing RJ, chit chatting and doing some of the club stuffs. Didn't get to meet boyfriend though... but i understand!

To Boyfriend:
I had a very nice time with you. Dinner was good with you around... Thanks for brightening my day even when you r so tired.. i really appreciate the efforts you have put in.. I am glad you decided to stay on... at least you got a goal now, on what exactly you wanna do and stuffs... I'll be behind you! Life and work will get better as time passes when you get the hang of it... ^_^

Happiness from within

2008-07-02T23:36:00.000-07:00

With you, For you

Had a small bicker, with me trying to get attention, blame the aunty who comes visiting. The feeling of unhappiness. But i am better now.. Boyfriend is understanding.
Knowing how he felt about work, i feel the pain but i guess, its still best he choose wad is best for him!!I will support you boyfriend! as long as you r happy, i am happy!

Class today is talking about MENSES. how cool it is! now i know why i am feeling that way and what i can do to feel better!
i am super happy today, cause its FRIDAY soon and tomorrow i have got no tuition! Which means, i will be able to see bf soon after my school! will be going prawning and EYEORE will be tagging along!

UPDATES
i will be starting a new tutee at CCK and i hope that this student is good n hardworking.pray hard!!!!!!

To boyfriend:
Thanks for loving me! Hang in there! everything will take a turn for better!With you, For you, we will make this happiness and love last!

2008-07-02T03:21:00.000-07:00

ME with Eyeore that Bf bought me!

I have something to say.

I wish i could be more stubborn when it comes to you, i wish i could make myself feel angry. But i just can't. If i am like her, would you pay more attention to me? I didn't say it, but i am disappointed. Very disappointed, everytime when i see the call coming in with the news of " i can't meet you." I am kinda sad.

But anyway, i should be understanding.

Today, met with dawn to eat at westmall.

Then we went over BBDC to apply for my BTT... August i will be taking my BTT. Then went over for tuition. My life is boring to a certain degree i guess. I love dawnie! she is always there for me! i think if she hadn't follow me there, i will be like a lost sheep not knowing what to do.

To boyfriend:

There is so much that I want to say yet whenever I see you, I got so so engrossed by your presence that I always forget to say what I had in mind.

I dunno what good deeds have I done, to be able to meet you, to have you showering constant love on me. The care, the attention, the love, the understanding, the commitment, the promises just made me feel too lost for words each time.

I just want you to be in my life. You know?

I am lost.

2008-06-30T22:16:00.000-07:00

I feel strangled, i feel ike i am dangling on a string, falling at any moment if i make too big a move.

I cried like a little kid last night, with so much inside of me, that i finally burst out. The fear in me that i am afriad to tell, that is very mealsy small.

Boyfriend started his work already and i hope he is doing great at work now cause i have caused disturbance to his sleep. I'm sorry. Anyway, boyfriend called to said he might be dropping by my place later so that i could see him for just a little while. I am touched. All the small little geusture he did, the small little stuffs he gave, the short and meaningful phrases he said, never had failed to warm my heart i guess.
Sometimes, love is everything that motivate and spurs you on when u feel drained out.

I cant wait to see your face. I really cant wait to be held by you.

I'll miss you so~

2008-06-29T08:47:00.000-07:00

Blessed with the love i have from you.

I just want this perfect moment to last forever. I need this moment to last.
I wonder what am i going to do now.... you are not going to be beside me till friday....

My good life has started, with you in it.

2008-06-28T23:12:00.000-07:00

Warning!! Super long post!

Saturday

It was the Muskerettes meeting time! Met Shirgin and Dawn at Tiong Bahru Plaza to do our nails at LadyFingers. But we had a quick lunch at Thai Express. Food was not that bad. and we had fun time chit chatting. Its nice, to know, we are able to connect with one another.
Did manicure and pedicure with Dawn while shirg did Pedi. All 3 of us have similar Nail art!
For the mani, me and dawn did the same colour and french tip! ^_^

Afterwhich Shirg left for church, while me and dawn went over to her place for food again! =/
ITs nice. Nice homecook food! Then we cabbed over to Orchard Wisma to collect dawn's fone. We wnated to take bus or train but dawn didnt bring her ezlink out, and it was more reasonable to take cab down cause her place is super near town.

Collected her fone at Sony and went over to NYDC to chill... all because town is getting boring and we absolutely have no idea where to go. Then we walked over to PS wanting to wash n blow our hair cause there's too much time to spare. But Red's too expensive la. Only those who r damm rich can afford to spend like that! Thus, we went over to Paradiz center JAntzen for the hair cut. *though i cut mine 2 days ago*

The day ended ard 10 plus with me reaching home and boyfriend came over to fetch me to meet Hanqi Kor kor and Elaine Jie Jie. Elaine Jie Jie super pretty! We chill awhile under the void deck, then went over to Ah mei, then to GhimMoh Kopitiam then we went separate ways and Me and boyfriend went dating, at a super weird timing, which is 2am! went over to Jurong hill, talked about stuffs. Its just so comfortable. Having him talking to me, standing side by side or just leaning on him. Everything. He is what most girl could have ever dream of wanting. He just have the ability to everything seem right.

To Boyfriend:
I appreicate everything you done, big or small. You have brighten up my days ever since the first time we met. The day when we went over to Happy Valley. Though we were just friends then. You made everything for me easy. You gave me the" happy energy " to understand that, sometimes, a smile, an embrace and a peck on the cheek, is all we need to make everything fall into place just so perfectly. Through you, i managed to know Han qi and Rick Kor kor, nice people, though u r still the nicest! Thank you for always caring about me, accepting me, caring about me and loving me.

If tomorrow never comes, i just want to thank you:
" I love you Shane and Thank you for everything you have given me."

Love of my life.

2008-06-28T12:41:00.000-07:00

This is my boyfriend and Rick kor kor!
Dawn and me... Short hair!

UPDATES

2008-06-26T11:03:00.001-07:00

Just came back home after meeting Shane, Rick Bro and Han qi bro...

Shane, is my boyfriend.
The one who loves me, care for me, dote on me, understand me and brightening my day.I wonder how my day is going to be like without him.... Looking forward to spend the rest of my time with you!

So this explains why i have not been blogging, cause me, shane, han qi and rick have been hanging out quite late, and boyfriend will always send me back home, Eyeore too!
*eyeore is the soft toy that boyfriend got me!

Common places that we hang out would be Han qi bro's viod deck, carpark, Ah mei etc etc....

Last Monday
Shane(not my bf yet) picked me from school. Went great world for movie and dinner. Get Smart is the show! Nice. must watch!!! I totally adore having able to spend time with him. ^_^

LAst Tuesday
Went out with Shane again. he picked me up from Tiong Bahru Plaza... hehe!!I forget what we did exactly but its always fun. Always had alot of laughter with him. Imm we went and we had early dinner at pepper lunch. Bought a top from Espirit. I love the top. Will take photo when i wear it!

Last Wednesday
Went tuition, had teochew mui and hang out with han qi bro with rick bro joining us! ^_^ Rick so super funny.

Thursday
Attached. ^_^ love him. Never fail to brighten my day. And i cut my hair short. =.= SHocking!
Looking forward to tomorrow! Christy love Shane.

Blog vacation i went....

2008-06-21T12:06:00.000-07:00

there is this long absence of myself blogging which i could only use one way to explain : laziness.
Practically life is good, friends, family and all makes things seem easier...

I totally love the fact that i am doing quite good nowadays and i have made it a point to attend school regularly.

Updates about school:
i have officially attended meetings of the SHL club and i m now in the Welfare and marketing of the club. Hope to have more time for all the meetings and stuffs!
Class is good. But i am still kinda trying very hard to motivate myself to attend school!

General:
I hang out very frequently with dawn and shirg, and we all love the times we sang in k box i bet! ^_^
I totally adore the girls!

Time for some updates

2008-06-12T22:02:00.000-07:00

Firstly, my apologies for not updating for a period of time.
Life during holidays just revolve around work, friends, MJ and family.

I am hook back into auditioning and i am still trying to have the hang of it back like the past.
Anyways, just to share some insights that i have read.

I forgotten from where did i read, but, roaches that fly are pregnant. So better catch it and don't let it spawn in your home!

People with Sinus problem are more prone to darkening of skin aorund the area like the side of the nose, corner of mouth, dark rings etc etc. I wonder if its true?

MJ is real fun but tiring at the same time.